As luck would have it, I came of age during the late 90s, when girl power and Lillith Fair were gaining all manner of popularity. I attended endless Ani DiFranco concerts, and painted my bedroom walls with lyrics that really brought forth my inner pain. I shaved my head and probably quoted, completely unironically "every tool is a weapon, if you hold it right." My mother, tortured by endless mix tapes entitled things like "I am NOT a Pretty Girl!," during our many college visits- to women's schools of course, that I would never actually attend- was baffled. "What do these women have to be so mad about?" she would enquire. And I, in my 17 years of wisdom, would reply "Life, Mom, life." She would roll her eyes and keep driving, and my reply? "You think that I am the derelict daughter, well I fight fire with words, words are hotter than flames, words are wetter than water." Seriously.
Regardless, whenever I am feeling relatively angsty, I always return to my girls. Ani, Tori, Fiones, the Indigo Girls, Joni- the list is endless. The past week or so has been particularly dreadful. Perhaps spurred by a few ghastly run-ins with Jose, that super rat, I have been unable to listen to anything but heart wrenching folk-esque music. I am constantly on the verge of tears, and absolutely everything has meaning. The other day at work I actually considered going into the bathroom to listen to the Indigo Girls' cover of "Romeo and Juliet" and have a cry. Luckily some semblance of logic, and the fear that I would come out of the stall, tear stained and clutching my iPod to run into a co-worker stopped me. But just barely. I have to take solace in listening to it on repeat 17 times in a row on the T, or in my room, where I do some heinous hippie esque dance while singing. As you can imagine, my roommates LOVE me.
What to do? I've got to get some help before this gets even more out of control, and I start talking about my "moon time," the healing power of stones, and vibrating at a higher frequency.
After all, the hardest to learn is the least complicated.
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I just found your blog postings. Quite fun. Love the way your write! Lunatic fringe and all that but with a fun twist and certainly extremely well written. Jeff
PS: I don't do a blog myself. But, my mother died recently and, during the time she was ill, I took events and her words and rendered them into a blog so that her friends and family could follow. You might like glancing at some of it since the style and tone seem to somewhat match your own. www.mizflounce.blogspot.com
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